Monday, June 18, 2012

Tin Man

I'm dusting off all the cobwebs on my blog, yes it's been that long. Summer is way to short and I hate how it flies by so quick. I haven't been in my craftroom, a.k.a. No Boys Allowed room, since the end of April except to grab something off the printer. I think it's fair to say this...I am really mad at myself. Many of you know already about my arthritis issues in my neck and back. But I always push myself and try to keep positive. Then last year my shoulder started acting up. Again, stay positive and push through it. However, now I'm having issues with my hands. So much so that I have to get physical therapy. I mean really...the hands? I have had to give up so many of the things that I have always loved to do, so many things, but when I started crafting it was a godsend for me. Now I am trying to stay positive, and I do mean trying, but it is getting hard to stay upbeat when it seems like everything that makes life enjoyable is being taken from you. I am only 47 years old and am not one to watch life through a T.V. I feel like the Tin Man from The Wizard of Oz before Dorothy came along to oil him. Just standing there, moving my eyes, and watching the world around me. I don't want to watch, I want to do. I just have to accept the fact that I can't "do" as much as I would like to. That's not going to be easy for me but it sure beats the other option of giving up. I will not give up my blog or crafting. I may be slow at it but I won't give up.

I do hope I haven't disappointed anyone that is kind enough to follow my blog. I also hope my friends know how much I value the friendships I have made on here. I may not be able to post as much as I would like or be able to visit your blogs as often but please know that this is in no way a reflection of me not caring or thinking of you. That is simply not true. I do read your blogs, even if you don't see a comment from me. It's just that every day I have to think about how I am going to use the little bit of time I get to do daily things before the pain sets in. Once that happens, that's it for me for the day. For an example, this post has taken me two hours to type and my hands are hurting. It stinks but that's just how it is for me. Next week I start the P.T. on the hands. I hope it helps. I'll keep you posted!

Thanks for taking the time to read my rant here. I do hope you all understand as to why I have been so sporadic but please know that I do adore you all! :)

{{Big Hugs}}


Susan the Tin Man